| first, i would like to make a statement...I am not a sore loser. I was not a staunch Kerry supporter by any means. However, being the intellect that i am...i would like to try to get inside the minds of those undecided voters who voted for Bush. I want to know the psychology behind why they supported this man over another. So i have a few ideas...
1. "We are at war, it would not be a good idea to have a change in government because of this." Alright, this argument is fair...or at least it would be IF we were at war. You see, as i recall-and i am sure any other intelligent person may look this up themselves-Bush stated that the war in Iraq was over. Of course, there ARE still people dying in Iraq...and i thought that maybe people would see this as a problem...but i guess not.
2. Ohio, in particular, has been SLAMMED, punched, slapped, kicked by the economy and affected quite negatively by job loss and unemployment.
I thought that since the job losses occured during Bush's term and the fact that he isn't doing much about it would sway voters who know people and family who are affected by this. I guess i was wrong (again).
3. If we are basing the election on charisma, character, and capabilities and not particular policies, then the debates would be a good determining factor as to who should be the better canidate.
Once again, i was quite wrong. For if you watched the debates-and i know a lot of people did because more people watched these debates than the previous ones-you would have seen that our current president lacked articulation in his speech, good technique in a debate, and often faulted to pointing fingers and repition. I will agree with you that Bush is just not a "good public speaker". I, in fact defended him because of this. However, if you were to base your opinion of a candidate solely on the debates, then Bush would not be your choice.
And yet, despite all this...Bush is winning not only the electoral college but also the POPULAR vote. I still cannot see how this can be. I suppose i give up on hoping that people think through the things that they do. I give up on hoping that people are able to see truth through lies and deception. I give up on Americans. I am not saying that my views are necesarily correct...but i have a feeling that a number of people didn't look into their candidate. Knowledge is key, and to me, a number of Americans lack it. If you want to be blind to the wealth of information that MAY prove your opinion wrong, then so be it. It seems to me that people faltered...they gave in to the lies and ideas that Bush is the better candidate. But, let them complain to me in the next four years. I will simply ask, "who did you vote for? WHY?" And this goes both ways, if you do not have a firm backing for why you voted for a particular candidate, WHY did you vote! "I voted because i hate Bush." "I voted because I think Bush is cool." "I voted for Kerry, because i don't want Hilary Clinton to run in 2008." "I voted for Bush because he can really wear a cowboy hat."(These sound stupid, but i have actually heard them...thats the sad thing.) Where is the, "I voted for so-and-so because i think he can do this, this, and this for my country?" I used to think that I could change the world...apparently, this is a dream that will never be fulfilled. I don't say vote for Bush or Kerry. I don't try to sway people in this manner. All i asked is that you look into your candidate. Determine what they stand for. Don't be stupid. Thank you. | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment   |
| | Current Music: | kelly clarkson-breakaway | | Subject: | Finally, an UPDATE! | | Time: | 03:34 pm | | Current Mood: |  content |
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| Aight, its been a while as people have pointed out to me. SO i will update you journal. Let's see...well college courses are interesting but pretty hard. I managed to pull off an A in health which is now over so MWF i have no class after 9:10. Pretty cool, means i can take longer naps damnit. Craig came and visited last weekend :)!! It was pretty fun even though we didn't do much but hang out here and play cards and watch tv and the like. I did see shark's tale which was cute, but no shrek let me tell ya. I just got done analyzing Lindsay Lohan's boobs with Emily and Ashley. We determined that she had a "i used to be fat, not gonna lie, face". But she's still cool-check out her song "rumors". The video is very provocative...not suggested for children under the age of 35. Anyway, fall break was last weekend, and it was okay...i worked most of the time. Then i had an experience of a lifetime-not gonna lie- went to the gynocologist. hmmm...wanna talk about being uncomfortable...guys-just consider yourself lucky aight? Some more songs i am listenin to these days: britney-perogative, pat benetar-love is a battlefield, liz phair-why can't i breathe, kelly clarkson- break away...good songs. Like you care, right? um, tiffany freaked me out last night cuz she never came home and i thought she died in a car accident on the way home. So imagine my suprise when i walked in after class and she was here. I also would like to voice the consensus of the whole group about a particular project for Tom Mould's class...if you were a baby and had to pick a womb in another country, what country would you want to be born in? Of course, this doesn't seem too difficult until you learn the parameters of the project and that you have a week to complete it and lo and behold, as it often comes to in Tom's class-not anyone has a clue wtf we are supposed to write about. So that was what has been going on for the past week in here, people consulting the MLA handbook, people writing their papers yesterday despite their (last) thursday due date...I have also concluded that i like the UN and don't like President Bush...i mean that was already a given but still...but i know that Kerry says he will be better and such but is that true? we'll see. i would just like to put it on the record that i think Kerry will win. No hindsight bias here. I called it. i would also like to note that last night i made sweet love to john kerry. haha. My girls know what i am talking about. I have also determined that i am teaching my children everything before they go to elementary school because that shit will fuck them up...i tutor a 3rd grade class and they are so confused about multiplication and counting money and reading clocks that i decided that no crazy teacher was going to confuse my kids. No i don't have any kids, i am talking about far along in the future. anyway i think that's all. i will try to update more often aight?
Later. | | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Well, its been a hot second since i updated this journal. I will tell you what, college grading sucks. haha. You know when you do a paper and you think it is the absolute shit and then you get it back...and it wasn't? well, this happens to me a lot. I am getting better though haha. We had our first colloquia for fellows last night...it was really sad...it was about kids in the U.S. who had AIDS. there was this one little girl that sang songs about it and it was cute but depressing. she said that one time she sneezed in class and some boogers came out and her teacher sprayed her down with AJAX. how sad is that. this weekend was quite interesting...friday night we had Carroll's boyfriend here and a bunch of people went out and Willy (the boyfriend) threw up in the breezeway but its all good cuz he cleaned it up, George came home puking and dry heaving for the rest of the night, we lost Alyssa at some building, oh yeah we lost kate too but we found her, and the girls across the hall burned popcorn resulting in a fire alarm at arond 1. Too be completely frank, my personal opinion is we shouldn't have to be people's babysitters. If they are going to drink, at least be responsible enough to A) take care of yourself, and B) don't leave people behind. Saturday i went to the A&T vs Elon game...albeit we lost (though it WAS close) it was still fun cuz A&T's band freaking rocks and all those black people! Maybe i will transfer....i had my first two college exams monday and tuesday and i did pretty well on them...but i guess we will see officially when i get them back. I got my first paper back from global and he said "good start, now keep going" KEEP GOING? there ain't nowhere else to go TOM! oh well. I also have a therapist, thought i would give Jared a shout out on here, who tells me that i don't spend enough time with myself...which i don't do because WORK WORK WORK is my mantra. I try to get ahead but everyday there's more more more. i would also give a shout out to my lovely boyfriend CRAIG who i will hopefully get to see NEXT weekend! yay! okay gotta run to class. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Christina Aguliera | | Subject: | stuff and stuff | | Time: | 11:37 pm | | Current Mood: | cheerful |
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| Well, my international relations class isn't as bad as i thought...but on another note...i am getting FAT. I eat all the time!! I need to go to the gym, which i will be going tomorow to work off this huge ass. here is a survey i filled out cuz i was bored. Stole it from some girl dweebyweeby.
Feel free to steal it and fill it out too!! til next time...
Full Name: Justine Maisha Davis
Age: 18
School: Elon U
City: Elon
State: NC
Height: 5’3
Weight: 125
Eye Color: brown
Original Hair Color: brown of the dark variety
Favorite//
Food: mmm food…
Drink: water is good…
Cereal: cereal, however, is nasty
Restaurant: PF Chang’s, Cheesecake factory
Park: Central Park was Awesome
Movie: Pirates, deliver us from eva, matrix
Candy: Caramelo
Juice: apple and orange with no pulp
Cartoon: futurama is good, but little mermaid and lady and the tramp, finding nemo and bug’s life are the best movies by far
City: NYC, D.C.
Book: Reading Lolita in Tehran is awesome, Da Vinci code was good, sisterhood of the traveling pants…
Game: Taboo, UNO, to name a few
First job: official? I babysat for a while, was a lifeguard for a day or two, and worked at applebee’s for a year boo-ya
First screen name: huggabirdie I think haha
First self purchased tape: I don’t recall ever buying a movie for myself…
First funeral: Pheobe’s grandmother’s
First credit card: I have a chase card…but its off limits
First true love: Craig
First enemy: hmmm…Christina Buckner probably hahaha
First big trip: Hawaii
First concert: TRL tour with beyonce and nelly and eve and some other peeps
First musician you remember hearing in your house: Janet Jackson hehe
LASTS
Last big car ride: uh…to school?
Last kiss: Craig…about two and half weeks ago…
Last library book checked out: Slave- great book I might add
Last movie seen: Mystic River…terrible movie…waste of my life!
Last beverage drank: drinking pink lemonade right now
Last food consumed: a salad from chickfila
Last phone call: uh…gray I think
Last CD played: Britney Spears first cd hahaha
Last annoyance: nobody to go with me to dinner at anyplace other than crapass danieley
Last soda drank: damn…that was a long ass time ago…I hate soda
Last ice cream eaten: Cookie dough on a stick from Danieley for dinner sometime last week
Last time scolded: Yeah right I am in college bitches!
Last shirt worn: red bebe shirt
Last website visited: livejournal
I AM: sexy
I WANT: some loving or intimacy as it was put in our health book haha
I HAVE: a brain?
I WISH: For love and happiness
I HATE: feeling fat
I FEAR: not doing what I am supposed to do
I HEAR: Britney Spears haha
I SEARCH: for a meaning for my life… for a major
I WONDER: what is everyone else doing?
I REGRET: nothing in life
I LOVE: my boyfriend
I ACHE: for hugs and kisses
I ALWAYS: try to be nice haha
I AM NOT: a token black chick or a bitch
I DANCE: all the damn time…speaking of its time for a new cd
I SING: all the damn time or I attempt to
I CRY: hardly never, tears are for babies
I AM NOT ALWAYS: nice…or motivated to do things…but I try to be
I WRITE: for my homework and on stickynotes
I WIN: uh…at games?
I LOSE: at games haha
I CONFUSE: people
I NEED: comfort, acceptance…something like that
I SHOULD: go to sleep
YES or NO:
x. YOU KEEP A DIARY: no unless this counts
x. YOU LIKE TO COOK: its fun
x. YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVE NOT SHARED WITH ANYONE: No I don’t think so
DO YOU...?
HAVE A CRUSH: not really
WANT TO GET MARRIED: of course
GET MOTION SICKNESS: nope never have
THINK YOURE A HEALTH FREAK: no but I do think I am fat
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: most of the times more than less
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: not when I have class damnit
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: eh…it will do
EYE COLOR: yeah
BIRTHPLACE: ATL shorty
FAVORITES:
NUMBER: 4
COLOR: Orange, pink purples whatever doesn’t matter to me
MONTH: April
SONG(S): Etta James “At Last”…that’s all I can think of…
SEASON: Spring and fall
PREFERENCES:
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: hey, why can’t I do both?!
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: hot chocolate
MILK, DARK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE: Milk chocolate
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: depends on what…Vanilla ice cream chocolate everything else
IN THE LAST 24 HRS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED? No
HELPED SOMEONE? Yes, just helped tiffany with a comp problem hehe
BOUGHT SOMETHING? Uh food counts on meal plan?
GOTTEN SICK? Felt a cold…but took some medicine and got all better
GONE TO THE MOVIES? No
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? Uh octagon counts as going “out” I think
SAID 'I love you'?: Yes
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: No
TALKED TO AN EX?: no unless craig counts as an “ex”
MISSED AN EX?: uh no
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?: this one
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: No
MISSED SOMEONE? Yes
HUGGED SOMEONE? No
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? No
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? No
Would you ever:
1. Eat a bug?: depends on what kind hehe
2. Bungee jump?: Yes
3. LOSE IT?: already have..we talk about my mind right?
4. Kill someone?: uh probably not…but you never know…people do piss me the hell off
5. Kiss someone of the same sex?: uh…if it was a whole lot of money and even then I would rethink it
6. Parachute from a plane?: Yes
7. Walk on hot coals?: yes, but I do think there is like an art or something behind that…so I wouldn’t get burned
8. Go out with someone for their looks?: Me? Shallow? Of course not …
9 . Cheat on someone? Would I ever AGAIN? No probably not
10. Be a vegetarian?: eh..i like meat
11. Wear plaid with stripes: whats wrong with that? I wore it today!
12. IM a stranger?: Yes
13. Sing Karaoke?: Yes
14. Get drunk off your Ass?: nah, don’t see the damn point
15. Run a red light?: no, unless it was like an emergency
16. Star in a porn video?: uh…already have? haha
17. Dye your hair blue?: no that wouldn’t look okay
18. Be on Survivor?: yeah sure why not
19. Wear makeup in public?: yeah have done it
20. Not wear makeup in public?: yeah do it more often than above
21. Cheat on a test?: not in college, I might die
22. Make someone cry?: would I do it on purpose? I would hope not
23. Date someone more than 10 years older than you?: when I am old too sure
24. Stay up all night? Yeah but I don’t suggest it…
Last...//
Time you went out: I go out all the time damnit…but we went to cantina on sat night before I went to the partays!!
Time you laughed: today at emily’s antics
Time you cried: uh…don’t cry
Time you took a quiz: today for freaking health punks
Person you spoke with: Liz in the bathroom
Person you hated: uh…don’t know
Concert or Show: its been a while…
Thing you touched: mouse
Which one//
Glasses or Contacts: both
Dress or skirt: Skirt
Pants or Shorts: Pants
Shoes or Sandals: Sandals
Food or Drink: food
TV or Radio: TV
Cellphone or Computer: phone
Diary or Journal: Journal
Walk or Run: Walk
VHS or DVD: DVD
CD or Tape: CD
Kiss or Hug: once again, why can’t I have both?
Drink or Smoke: neither, but drink I guess
Sing or talk: talk
Water or Soda: Water
Closed or Open: open!
Would you rather...//
Live or Die: live duh
Be Happy or Sad: happy
Be lonely or Alone: alone
Have many friends or One great friend: uh…one great one I think
Stay at home or Go out: depends…sometimes I like to stay home
Smile or Laugh: Laugh
Draw or Write: write cuz art is not my forte
Run away or Move away: move
Yes or No//
Drunk? No
Lost someone? Yes
Left someone? Yes
Did anyone leave you, emotionally? I suppose
Hurt someone? Yes
Made someone close to you cry? Yes
Fell in love? Yes
Cried over someone? Yes but remember I don’t cry hehe
Dated someone you didn't care about? Uh…yeah
Hated someone so much? Hate is a terrible word
Taken care of a baby? Yes
Helped someone big time? Yes
Pushed someone away? Yes
Are you complicated? Yes
Move away? Yes
Took someone away from another person? Maybe on accident
Cried so much? no
Laugh so hard that your stomach ends up hurting? All the time
Ever had a disease? No diseases…maybe the flu? | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Well, a lot has gone down this week. I decided to change my major, perhaps. Why you ask? Well for a number of reasons. First, I don't want to study theories...i want to study People. International Relations and as far as i know Poli Sci are all study of theories. Personally, I think theories are retarded. Theories apply to only certain things and sometimes are often wrong. If i wanted to study theories, i would just take a science class or something. So i was thinking maybe Sociology or History. However, I really really want to travel AND i want to concentrate in Africa/Middle East and i want to learn Arabic. I fear that if i drop IR as a major, i might lose all of the above. IDK though. I am thinking i will take sociology cultural anthropology next semester so maybe i can get a feel. The other reason is because i have become quite disillusioned by politics in the US. The other day i went to a College Democrats meeting and was kinda bothered by it. I can't explain why, but i have started to realize there is no difference between republicans and democrats...i hate them both. Kerry sucks, Bush sucks...i don't know. I just don't want to care about how stupid politics are. SO i don't want to study it.
On the other hand, I went to a RSA and an Area council meeting and i liked them both. They are organizations here who organize stuff for the residence halls and get stuff changed for people who live on campus. Also, i went to black cultural society and i like that also mostly because its for blacks and they too organize stuff but mostly for minority stuff. haha, stuff is such a universal word. As far as my classes are going, I like Fine Arts alot...International Relations sucks, health sucks, Global Studies is a-okay by my book. Elon 101 has only met once, but it seems fine.
As far as people here, yesterday we got into a battle with the boys, because those punks put a metronome in my ceiling. SO we fought back with bananas, wet toilet paper, duct tape...umbrellas. haha. Ashley also attacked me with markers so by the end of it all we looked like we were covered in war paint and just finished a major battle...and won. good times at the ECF Living Learning Community.
Another cool thing, President Lambert brought us cookies the other day. I mean the president of ELon. he is our Elon 101 teacher, because we are SPECIAL, and i think he thinks we are scared of him, so he baked us cookies and brought them here. How cool is that? Well i think that is about all there is to say...until next time... | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | I swear-boys 2 men | | Subject: | Danieley | | Time: | 07:36 pm | | Current Mood: |  sleepy |
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| | Well, today was an experience. Since I live off campus...and it was raining today...and the stupid tram wasn't running...see where i am going? Soaked and cold is not fun. Anyway, i feel bad because i left out Liz and Kate on the list of girls...They are cool too! hehe. So anyway, we played football last night and kevin aka john mayer haha had a boxing match in one of those bouncy things...so that was fun. Then we played taboo and a game we made up sorda with a bouncy ball and crazy questions. Good times...people probably thing we are really clicky. is that how you spell that. but we aren't...we just have the same classes and stuff. Anyway, its weird..i mean i love white people...but idk...it shouldn't bother me since i am used to being the only black around but it does kinda...its weird. I mean i met people at the minority thing but since we live at Danieley its not like i will really see those people. So its weird. Anyway orientation is over and classes start tomorrow...bright and early. Aight well later... | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| Well, I moved in on Friday...and it was okay...i met all my suitemates and all that blah blah. Anywho, friday night i wasn't really feeling the meeting new people crap and i wasn't homesick i just didn't want to feel like i was at summer camp with all the scheduled events and orientation stuff we had to do. Danieley is really really really really far from campus so getting used to that was fun...But today was a lot better and all of us fellows hung out alot cuz we all live together...like the Real World except with 17 or so people. Well anyway a little about the peoples i live with: my roommate Tiffany is cool, she is from Ohio and she is a vegetarian. My suite mates are Allysa who is really sweet, Carroll who is Japanese and really cool, Kristen who is our RA, Jessica who is nice but really quiet, Ashley who is cool and wants to start a suite soccer team, and Emily who is funny and thinks you can make cookies on a george forman grill. Anyway, today we went with the guys to Walmart and bought a fish whose name i don't know (i think it is Harley..>Prince Harley), a toaster oven we split with the guys, some bar stools for the kitchen...and other stuff. We went to Steak and Shake after that to get shakes then chilled in the guys' room and played UNO and BS and talked. It was pretty fun. So i guess i will be okay. haha. I am very scared i am going to fall off my bed.
On a different note, Craig moved in today, and he called me and i feel really bad for him because he was like i will call you at 11 since that is our curfew...he doesn't seem to be too happy at Hampton. I am not the only one in our suite that has a long distance thing...like 3 of the guys do and 3 girls do so its all good.
Okay well i am going to sleep...later. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Well, Craig broke up with me today. Yeah, you might ask why. Well he was fed up with a lot of things, mostly me. Understandable if you knew the whole situation. The thing is, when we broke up earlier it was me...i managed to get us back together. But when Craig does something, he has no regrets...i dont think we will be getting back together then. Yes i am upset...but i think...maybe there is a positive here? I mean we did fight and have our downs which were always really bad. I mean our ups were good, but our downs were rough. I mean he is going to hampton and distance might not benefit us...don't get me wrong...i love craig and i want us to get back together. but...if it doesn't work out, i think i will be alright. I always thought that we were going to get married or whatever, but maybe i was holding onto that idea too much...overlooking the fact that we don't get along sometimes. I mean we get along great...when we get along...but at the same time we can fight. Have really bad ones like the one today. So i don't know. We'll see.... | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| So i was thinking, these are the places i have to go before i die. Figured i should write them down.
Africa-in particular
Ghana - Hopefully at Elon
Morocco- Something to do with my D.I.
Egypt- I am a History buff, what can i say
Sudan- Read about the slave trade that goes on here today...human rights violations all over the place
Cape Verde Islands (Where my family is from)
Middle East
Iran- want to see how the women live...heard it sucks (looking for a good book to read? read "reading lolita in tehran")
Saudia Arabia
Mecca and Medina in particular - Muslim Holy Places...not that i am muslim but Still the place to go
Afghanistan and all the other stans we learned in Human Geo ha
Europe
France (hopefully next summer)
Germany - Wanted to learn German when i was little...plus lots of beer...enough said
Spain - Took spanish for a few years, so let's not let it waste
Greece- Hey, every history buff must visit, i think
Portugal- Well, i have family from cape verde which was colonized by these people so might be cool to check out
England and Wales because when i was little i wanted to live there...guess the just have cool accents?
Australia- Cool Accents
Costa Rica - Honey Moon, craig
Argentina- The kids from there were cool
Some little islands in the pacific like Tuvalu and Figi- paradise far from the bothering tourists...thats what i am talking about
And i think thats bout it. Cool beans. Had to get that off my chest. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | hello all...long time no write. This summer has been a lot of laziness and chilling. I just sleep, work, and eat. SO i am getting fat, unfortunately. And none of yal come and visit me at work. A highlight of whats gone on in my life: Craig and I broke up, but three days later we got back together. (Showers...thats it haha). I went to Atlanta for a week with angela and it was fun then went to New York City and i totally loved it and i want to work there but not live there. I wish i could profess all of my emotions on here like everyone else does but i just can't. What do you want me to talk about. I am looking forward to moving in but at the same time i am nervous and at the same time i want to be lazy and not worry about schoolwork. on the other hand i want to meet new people. I have talked to one of my suite mates, Liz, and she is cool...we communicate via email often and discuss politics and such. The other girls in the suite seem pretty cool also. My roommate doesn't talk very much but she seems cool too. I have "met" kinda two guys in the fellows program and they are cool also (i haven't talked to them, just read some of their responses on a forum and a live journal). Anywho, work is a bummer but it is good...i got a raise thank god. It gets kinda crazy and saturday night it was very bad because our computers were down...but other than that i think i can survive. Only a month....For all the enquiries as to whether or not Craig and I will stay together...well, if you know us well, you know that we plan on getting married in the church where we met in approx. 7 years on May 21 and honeymooning in Costa Rica and having a little girl named Ania and living in VA. However, as i must be a realist, there is a chance that won't work out. I have come to realize that i don't need a boyfriend to be happy as long as i have good friends who are fun to hang out with. I think that if craig and i happen to break up, i will step away from the dating scene and try to have a little fun. I think that craig has set a higher standard for me and i don't believe that anyone will be able to fill that position like he has. I think i will try too hard to find another craig which i am almost positive there is NO one like him around, but...idk. Hopefully we will make it through college. I will try to be optimistic. hehe. aNYWHOO, i am supposed to be doing some work for my mom so i besta go. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | taco bell-Coochie late night | | Subject: | Dear Super Steen | | Time: | 01:14 am | | Current Mood: | chipper |
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| Dear Super Steen,
I need your advice. My boyfriend is always talking to this other girl. He says they are just friends, but they text message each other all the time and they always talk over the internet. Should I worry?
Thank you, Only Slightly Naive
Dear Only Slightly Naive,
I am sure you have nothing to worry about. Unless your boyfriend has a penis. Then you do have some trouble on your hands. Anytime a boy says that he is just friends with another girl, that is a lie. So here is what you do...Get you a butcher knife...Wait til he is all aroused thinking he is going to get some from you..then hold the knife over his manhood so he gets really scared and make him tell you the truth. If he is cheating on you...slice and dice. If he's not, slice and dice and make sure he knows you ain't no slut. Your welcome, Super Steen. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | i dont know what complacent means-nyla and the dog band | | Subject: | for all who care | | Time: | 11:32 am | | Current Mood: |  complacent |
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| | Today is Craig and my 1 year anniversary. If you know me, that is a long long time. Its been a good one...more ups than downs more smiles than frowns (whoa that rhymes!)I don't know what we are doing tonight but i am sure it is something fun and exciting ;). Anywho, we graduate tomorow and then a majority of you cool cats are headed to beach week. Well, dont get into too much trouble and do remember people like me who are so UNfortunate and cannot be there at the beach with you. sadly. just don't kill yourself. Well, i am off to clean my house for the visiting family who will be chillin here. enjoy your summer if i never talk to you again. Later | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Well, this year is virtually over... and with it is the end of high school. I ask you this, are you satisfied with the past four years? Do you regret any of it? Was it worth it? Was it worth any of the sacrifices you made to get good grades, high SATs, low class rank? I was filling out a sheet today about SATs and academics and i realized how pointless those scores are now. So there are no bragging rights if you got a 1600 or a 750 on math. It doesn't matter that you WERE the best student in the class. It matters not that you had the most friends or that you had the best parties. We all go our separate ways, and lets be honest...how many of us will actually keep in touch with one another? Maybe we will read each other's profiles on a whim, but we will not speak. So then don't cry over the friends of high school because you will make new ones, probably better ones. Don't cry over the old memories because you will have new ones. Don't look back on it longingly or dwell in reminiscent times, because you will then always be the loser you were in high school. And yes we are all losers. there are the losers who spend their whole time studying. They lost out on friends and memories. There are the losers who didn't spend enough time studying...they lose out on the benefits of high school and perhaps college education. There are those of us who want to be cool and try so hard we miss out on the good things in life. So we are all losers. There will always be something you regret and something you wish you had done. But since you didn't, make up for it in the next four years in life. You will soon come to realize what a waste the superficiality of high school was. You will meet your potential and realize how your stupidity and high school antics were holding you back from doing that. You will make good friends who won't stab you in the back, or boyfriends who won't cheat on you or do stupid shit. You will make friends who will be there for you always and you wont have to worry about superficial, selfish people like the ones you hung out with in high school. Don't think i am being negative, but don't live in the past. This summer step away from your old circle of friends and become yourself. Stop trying to conform. You will meet new people on a new campus who won't ask you to conform and who will respect you for who you are. There will always be drama, but not as pointless, superficial and selfish as the drama of high school. Don't waste your tears on the people you think you will miss...leave your door open for new people. The end. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| Stole this from Anna...hope you enjoy reading this for fun.
-[11 Memories]- (not in order)
01. Lindsay falling down the stairs at school
02. my DI (hey it was fun)
03. my FUN parties from 9th grade (NOT!)
04. getting my license
05. Prom and all that nonesense
06. all the fun beach trips with ANG
07. meeting Craig, the love of my life (lol)
08. starting young dems (cuz we rock)
09. Dating some special guys...i.e. Michael Culler
10. 9/11
11. good times at western carolina (wink)
-[10 Favorite Singers]- {not in order}
01. John Mayer
02. Jessica Simpson
03. Britney Spears
04. Donna Summer (haha)
05. Minnie Riperton
06. Motown anything
07. Sir Mix alot
08. Kelly Clarkson
09. Outkast
10. Usher
-[9 Things You're Looking Forward To]-
01. SEX hahaha
02. Graduation
03. College.
04. Prom
05. class day (oh but it WILL suck)
06. escaping winston salem
07. taking a shower in a few minutes
08. hitting up FL with my girls
09. spending the summer with craig
8 Things You Wear Daily
01. Panties (no thongs, Craig)
02. shoes
03. comfy clothes
04. my ring/necklace Craig
05. belts are a must have
06. my great g-ma's engagement ring
07. watch
08. earrings
7 Things That You Hate
01. i love everyone...except...certain peoples
02. not being able to just chill cuz i am so damn busy
03. not getting gold camels
04. having to go to school
05. my manager at Applebee's
06. going to the mall
07. people getting into trouble and causing me stress
6 Things You Touch Every Day
01. Car.
02. Cell phone.
03. My hair.
04. Clothes.
05. People.
06. Computer.
5 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over
01. matrix numero uno
02. any disney flick
03. Catch me if you can
04. girls gone wild
05. lord of the rings
4 Of Your Favorite Childhood Toys
01. Addy and Kristen
02. Barbies
03. doll houses
04. my kitchenette
3 Boys You Have Kissed (just three?)
01. Craig
02. Will
03. Justin H.
2 Of Your Favorite Songs At This Moment
01. Take my breath away-Berlin
02. roses-outkast
1 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With
01. Craig
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FIRSTS
First best friend: pheobe
First car: 95 accord
First real kiss: Brendan
First break-up: dude, that was like 2nd grade haha
First screen name: huggabirdie
First self purchased album: Spice Girls or alanis moorisete.
First funeral: Pheobe's grandmother
First pets: Frogs, fish, you name it i had it
First piercing/tattoo: Ears, when i was wee little
First credit card: CCB
First true love: Craig
First enemy: i had many
First big trip: hawaii
First music you remember hearing in your house: janet jackson
LASTS
Last cigarette: don't smoke, sorry
Last car ride: Home from the airport
Last kiss: thursday, during lunch...hehe
Last good cry: the week before last...really stressed
Last library book checked out: Books for decade projects
Last movie seen: passion of the christ
Last beverage drank: oj
Last food consumed: chicken
Last crush: crush...craig maybe
Last phone call: craig
Last time showered: last night...its about that time
Last shoes worn: some flip flops
Last item bought: shoes from kmart...don't hate
Last annoyance: my mom/bro/dad
Last time wanting to die: i always want to live
Last time scolded: today
r e l a t i o n s h i p s
01. who are your best friends? Angela i suppose...i love all of yal tho
02. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yes
f a s h i o n | s t u f f
01. where is your favorite place to shop? Charlotte Russe, ross, target wherever i can get stuff cheap
02. any tattoos or piercings? Ears thats it
s p e c i f i c s
01. do you do drugs? no, just the legal type
02. what kind of shampoo do you use? whatever is in the bahtroom
03. what are you most scared of? failure
04. what are you listening to right now? craig's annoying banter
05. where do you want to get married? hahahahaha, in a church the one where we met...in may like on the 21st
06. how many buddies are online right now? 24.
07. what would you change about yourself? nothing i am perfect.
f a v o u r i t e s
01. color: orange, yellow, pink
02. food: food is good
03. boys' names: trent
04. girls' names: Ania Michelle, Kiera Selene
05. subjects in school: human geo, and history
06. animals: Lemur
07. sports: soccer, football
08. perfume: Curve maybe
09. cologne: idk, whatever them fine good smellin boys wear
h a v e | y o u | e v e r
01. given anyone a bath? small children.
02. smoked? no
03. bungee jumped? No
04. made yourself throw up? No
05. skinny dipped? No
06: ever been in love? Yes
07. made yourself cry to get out of trouble? Yes
08. pictured your crush naked? yes, but i don't have to imagine
09. actually seen your crush naked? sadly, yes...never walk in on people in the shower
10. cried when someone died? been upset, no tears tho
11. lied? Yes
12. fallen for your best friend? yes
13. been rejected? no, i have never been rejected
14. rejected someone? Yes.
15. used someone? yes
16. done something you regret? nope
c u r r e n t
clothes: overalls and blue shirt
music: None
make-up: None
annoyance: craig laughing at stupid stuff on tv
smell: chicken
favorite artist: i like music
desktop picture: something bright and pink with stars
book your reading: i have no books...too busy
cd in player: hillary duff
dvd in player: Not a damn thing
color of toenails: Plain.
l a s t | p e r s o n
you touched: my brother, not in a loving way
hugged: my stepmom
you imed: Rosanne or andrew britt
you kissed: craig last week
a r e | y o u
understanding: i try to be
open-minded: Yes.
arrogant: no, i am perfect
insecure: sometimes
interesting: very
hungry: all the time.
smart: oh yeah
moody: yea
hardworking: yes
organized: Somewhat.
healthy: i suppose
shy: naw
attractive: oh yeah
bored easily: yes, with your face
responsible: i try to be
obsessed: not really
angry: Not right now.
sad: no quite the contrary
disapointed: naw
happy: yeah, more often than not
hyper: was earlier today
trusting: no, all people are evil
talkative: of course, i have a mouth don't i?
legal: yeah i am...at least for the time being
w h o | d o | y o u | w a n n a
kill: that wouldnt be very nice
slap: just a few people
get high with: uh, not my kind of thing
look like:nobody but me
talk to offline: craig, since he done got off the phone with me
talk to online: anyone who will talk
r a n d o m
in the morning i am: Sleepy, hating school, wanting to be with a certain someone.
all i need is: a boyfriend and some friends and some love.
love is: being able to discuss bodily functions with the other person, without being disgusted...farting and laughing about it...knowing that you can always turn to that person whenever you feel like shit and they can make you feel all better....like a bandaid haha
i dream about: some weird stuff...like class day and long road trips
w h i c h | i s | b e t t e r
coke or pepsi: dr pepper
flowers or candy: candy
tall or short: tall
r a n d o m
what do you notice first: hair
last person you danced with: craig, cuz i gotta teach him the technique
worst question to ask: "are you serious?"...what the hell, why would i say it if i wasnt serious?
who makes you laugh the most: craig, cuz he is so goofy its funny
who makes you smile: gosh i hate to do this...craig again cuz he can be so sweet sometimes
who gives you a funny feeling when you see them: the thought of running into certain ex boyfriends gives me a funny feeling...not a good one
who do you have a crush on: dude, whats with all the crush questions...i haven't had a crush since like 6th grade...i have a boyfriend silly
who has a crush on you:anything that has a penis
d o | y o u | e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: No, cuz then i can just pick up the phone and call his ass
save conversations: used to, but don't really have any special ones online
wish you were a member of the opposite sex: sometimes...hahaha...how cool would it be to have a penis
wish you were younger: naw why would i do that?
cry because someone said something to you: no, cuz sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me. (except this one time...when craig was being an ass...but i didnt cry...just was upset)
n u m b e r
of times i have had my heart broken: never happened, cuz it ain't possible.
of hearts i have broken: too many to count
of guys i've kissed: ooo....big number...
of girls i've kissed: haha none
of continents i have lived in: One
of tight friends: a few
of cds i own: a whole bunch
of scars on body: a bunch from being rugged | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Well, its been a long time since i wrote...mostly cuz i am either too busy or too pissy to do so. Whats been going on is this...drama over class day, drama over the officers in Young Democrats, school is just dramatic...drama over work, drama over track...etc. If you don't know whats up with class day, all of the senior girls skits got cut...sucks for them but its caused some serious drama and i am bout tired of it. To be honest with ya, they werent funny, they were only inside jokes between one group...and they were really viscious. But hey, whatever, just shows how COOL our senior class is! The debates are this tuesday, so yal all besta be there cuz its going to be off the heeze. Thanks to me everything is falling into place...hehe. No doubt there ain't no thanks for two certain juniors who have slacked in their vice-president positions. no names. as for work...if you know, i have been complainin like mad because whore monkey Mike White thinks its really cool to not put me on the schedule...riiight (mike whore is the manager at APPLEBEE'S). I was bitter bout that last week, but i am over it now i suppose. As for track, Coach George is a suck giraffe. haha. He pisses me off, cuz like we are supposed to be senior captains and he is all like " we are going to focus on the juniors this year...we don't need the seniors" SO if i don't compete, and if i am not needed as a leader and what we do at practice doesn't keep me in shape then why am i running track again? thats what i thought. My birthday was last sunday...no big deal or nothing. for all those who follow me and craig's wonderful relationship, on the 15th will be the anniversary of when we started "talking". pretty sad i remember that ain't it? word on the street is, we may just stay together and get married...how funny would that be? Also, as a side note, MAY 8 is the RACE FOR THE CURE and i expect all my homies to do it...especially if you know my moms. Same day as prom, but you can get over that. Well i am going to bounce i hope all you steen followers are satisfied. MUCH LOVE | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | well, today is another day...and quite frankly i am not going to be up on this piece writing something every day. Here is something for you: Yo mama's so ugly, her birth certificate was an apology letter from the condom factory. Yo mama's so ugly, when two guys broke into her apartment, she yelled "rape" and they yelled "NO!" Hopefully, nobody was offended by either of those. I am off to work on some scholarships and homework and such... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Well, it is today...the first day back from break. So i hate school. can i get a hate school heard? Anna told me i should put SOMETHING on my journal. Well, this is what i have to say about that two-timing ho: You better stop sleeping around on my cousin cuz i know where you live and i ain't scared to bring my glock and bust a cap in your white girl butt. I am about tired of you trying to act like you all QUEEN biATCH ho and you better than everybody cuz you got your nipple pierced and you know i am jealous but that is besides the point...anyway i got something to say and then i am done : "I know you like to think your Shit dont stink, but lean a little closer and roses really smell like POOPOOPOO." haha I am just kidding. I ain't got no beef with ANNA...i ain't got no beef with nobody. which is why i ain't got no drama up on this here website. But maybe i will make up something to keep yal interested. Or maybe not, quite frankly this here is my JOURNAL and i am just keeping it real. Let's see...I went to craig's house today...he supposed to be tutoring me in math but all he did was stab me with the pencil and i start bleeding so i got rushed to the hospital and they said i have lead poisoning now and they have to amputate my left foot, because they don't want it to spread. This whole time i am down with that cuz they gave me some morphine and i liked it alot. Man if you believe that far fetched story, you are some kind of stupid. on a serious note, i need a psychiatrist...i am suffering from Dissociative Identity Disorder and Anxiety...i need BRAIN help. Someone please tell me to shut the heck up. Yal i am trying not to cuss. You gotta help me. But anyway i am out....but i leave you with this last message "Save yourself for your husband/wife" Its a good philosophy and that way your future signifigant other won't think you is a ho. Holler. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | SO, i fly back into Winston today, and i am like whoa now it is cold!! I wish i was back in florida. Like an orange. cept without the pulp. In case yal care, today is Craig and my 10 month anniversary. Throw a party or something. Its a big deal. NOT REALLY. I LOVE YOU THO BABE! And for all of the CRAIG and JUSTINE relationship followers out there, it is almost a year to the date that we first met (well, not technically...since we met before but you know what i mean...if you know what i mean...and you probably don't so i should shut up). By the way, i got into Furman and American over spring break (OOOH AHHHH). Now i am screwed cuz i don't know where i want to go! Darn you people who knew from day one where exactly you wanted to go!! But anyway it is late and i must prepare for a brand new day tomorow...yes...SCHOOL!!! Later. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | well, I saw that alot of people have these here journals, so i figured i would make one also. hehe. Anyway, i am in atl, returning tomorow, and i am straight chillin...jammin to some sean paul and sasha. I don't really know what i am going to go about saying on this here journal. I gotta give my props out to my girl ang who is going on a date this evening (you go girl) haha. I hope everyone is enjoying their spring break since it will be over in a few days (and for those of you who don't reside in forsyth county...you will get your spring break...eventually hehe). But fourth quarter is just around the corner and then graduation and it will all be over. My spring break was good, thanks for asking. I hit up Tampa earlier in the week and went to busch gardens and the beach. So it was fun. A much needed vacation after the crappy 3rd quarter. Its too bad i don't have a fun picture of my bodily piercings to put up here, or otherwise i would do so. haha. i don't really have any drama to tell about so i guess i will leave on a happy note. hope everyone is all good...keep in touch with the steen. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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